The caption of my Senior Year highschool yearbook said..
“I can’t wait to have kids – football players and dancers”
I couldn’t wait to have kids. We were both so excited when we found out we were pregnant with Sydney and then Trey.
Raising kids during the early years was definitely stressful, but my memories are filled with the good times, not the stressfull or sleepless times.
I go to the golf course every weekend and sometimes I see Dads out there teaching their kids how to play – the same way my Dad did to me.
I always feel twinges of pain and sadness when I see them having fun together.
Yesterday I had another moment of sadness at the course because the University of Kansas mens golf team was practicing on the range beside me. The coaches were there and some parents too.
On the drive home I thought about how much I wanted kids when I was younger so I could be part of their lives and interests – whether that be golf, football, dancing, or making YouTube videos.
Well, I’ve got kids but I don’t have the other parts. They’re not talking to me so I’m completely missing out on their dancing and video making.
They’re 15 and 13 now. Sydney probably just got her learners drivers license so she can drive a car with an adult present.
It’s sad that adult won’t be me.
I miss them so much. I’m missing out on so much.