Author: Josh

It finally happened – I bought a house. Over the last few weeks I’ve always feared something would get in the way and prevent the purchase from going through, but that was just my mind playing tricks on me. Nothing went wrong. Last night we signed the closing documents and today the title was recorded […]

Last month I started a post about how my Mom received an offer on her house. After being on the market for almost a year, she finally got an offer, but the offer fell through because the inspection failed and the buyer wasn’t interested in getting the minor issues fixed before buying it. That’s when […]

I sent the kids a Happy Valentine’s text in a group chat yesterday. No response. So then I texted them individually a few hours later. Still no response. I’m starting to wonder if I’m blocked? Has their Mama got control of their phone permissions? Yesterday I had the idea to write them physical letters to […]

Never change your phone number unless absolutely necessary. Yesterday I was supposed to go to the final round of the WM Phoenix Open but I couldn’t log into the AXS ticket app to view my tickets because my account was tied to my old phone number in Charlotte. I guess I used AXS to purchase […]

Sometimes I wrestle with the guilt that I might be abandoning my kids. I’ve stopped trying to reach out to them because when they don’t reply to my texts/calls/facetimes it hurts my heart. I’ve left the ball in their court.

I’ve known for a couple weeks the Wayback Machine archived some snapshots of the family blog I used to write. I was reluctant to view the archives because I knew it would make me sad. I was right. Tonight I scrolled some of the snapshots and had to stop to lay down on my bed […]

Sydney turned 15 today. Last night I set my alarm for 11:59 so I could send her a Happy Birthday text as soon as it turned January 20th. As expected, she didn’t respond. Today has been an awful day for me – filled with sadness about my kids not talking to me. I left work […]

I used to have a blog called 4plums – it was a family blog I regularly updated chronicling the ins and outs and daily lives of our family. I wrote about a bunch of monumental occasions; losing teeth, first day of kindergarten, family trips, solar eclipses, etc.. I loved writing that blog. Back in 2019 […]

Last night I had a very strange but realistic dream. I dreamed I was the Principal of a school and Trey started going to my school. Trey didn’t know I was the Principal. One day we ran into each other in the hallway and we took a second to recognize each other. And then Trey […]

I wasn’t going to contact Trey today cuz I knew she wouldn’t answer, but I ended up texting anyways. As expected, no response. It stings so bad. Here’s what I texted: Sometimes I ‘talk’ with MSFT Copilot to vent and speak without judgement. Here’s what CP said when I told her Trey didn’t respond. That […]

Happy 13th Birthday, Trey! I wonder what you’re up to today? You’re a teenager. Wow. I miss you.

I slept like a rock last night, even with all the fireworks going off in the neighborhood. I wasn’t even awake at midnight. I haven’t seen the clock strike midnight on a New Year in a looooooong time. Last night my Mom and I made some yummy steaks with a side of Scottish potatoes – […]

Yesterday was the three-year anniversary of me leaving my marriage. Your Mama and I decided at around lunch time that we would tell you guys about our divorce. I spent the rest of the day packing my van and then we sat you both down at about 9pm just before bed. I hugged you guys […]

It’s five days until Christmas. I haven’t had any contact with you guys since September. I stopped trying to text you in November. I’m thinking less and less about you guys. Remember after the divorce I used to tell you guys my number one fear was you forgetting me? It’s happening. You’re forgetting me and […]

Yesterday while I was driving I thought about the day Mama and I separated. It was December 22, 2022. This Christmas will be the fourth Christmas without you guys. I don’t remember much about the last three years but I’m pretty sure I sent you guys money for Christmas and your birthdays. This morning I […]

Hey kiddos, You guys are probably at Bubby and Pop’s place having Thanksgiving dinner today. I’m here at my place in Arizona with my Mom having turkey and all the fixin’s. Remember when we had Thanksgiving at our house and I used to bring a tiny branched tree inside and add paper leaves with notes […]

Yesterday I turned the selfie pic we took together in September into a cartoon. It looks pretty cool. Isn’t ai amazing? Sometimes I wonder what you guys are learning about ai? I wonder if you have access to the internet yet? Anyways, I wanted to text you guys this pic but I didn’t because I […]

I hate this time of year. Thanksgiving, Christmas, New Years and then your birthdays in January.   I wish I could fast forward to Spring.  If our relationship was strong I might love this time of year because we could FaceTime, I could send gifts, and then spoil you for your birthdays. But instead we’re not […]